Actress Emily Lloyd has revealed for the first time that she was sexually abused when she was five years old.
Emily, 43, who shot to fame as a 16-year-old in the hit 1987 film Wish You Were Here, makes the revelations in her forthcoming autobiography Wish I Was There, which is serialised in The Mail on Sunday’s Event magazine today.
She says her abuser was a family friend who babysat for her and her younger sister.
Emily writes: ‘Mum had so many demands on her time that she often trusted babysitting duties to friends.
‘One family friend was an older man. What she didn’t know was that he was a depraved predator.
‘The man, once invited into the family home, betrayed that trust in the most sickening way imaginable.
‘He would come into my room after I’d gone to bed and subject me to acts so abhorrent it’s too painful to recount.
‘They were accompanied by the classic threats; if I told a soul about what was happening, worse would happen.
‘I felt dirty and worthless, invaded and helpless.
‘It went on for weeks, perhaps months. I never disclosed what was happening. Who would believe a five-year-old girl over a grown man? It seemed better to lock it away.’
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The star now claims the pressure of confronting the abuse triggered the first of a series of breakdowns that shattered her career.
Her portrayal of a sexually precocious teenager in Wish You Were Here had turned her from an unknown London teenager into the darling of Hollywood almost overnight.
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Emily as a young child at about the time she was abused
She moved to the US at 17 and went on to star in blockbuster A River Runs Through It with Brad Pitt and In Country with Bruce Willis, and dated a string of celebrity boyfriends including Val Kilmer and Sean Penn.
But the demons of her past began to catch up with her as she fought battles with drugs and mental illness.
She writes: ‘I started dabbling in cocaine.
‘The relief from every day misery might have been fleeting, but it was respite. I’m not proud to admit this but in my lowest moments I have even resorted to crack cocaine.’
Emily, the daughter of Only Fools And Horses star Roger Lloyd-Pack and theatre agent Sheila Hughes, has since been treated for schizophrenia and depression and has not worked for four years.
She has never married and lives alone in East London, but says her mental health has now stabilised.
Wish You Were Here 1987 official trailer
Emily, left, is the daughter of Only Fools and Horses star Roger Lloyd-Pack